THE FUTURE IS BEAUTIFUL. LIFE IS BRIGHT. YOU ARE THE SPARK AND YOU HOLD THE LIGHT.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

One more. Just one more.

Right. Biology next. So gotta study study study! (laughs) So symbiosis has three categories. One is commensalism, parasitism and mutualism. Bla bla bla. =) (laughs) Well after biology, it's FREEDOM! No MORE studying! But then the next day I have art. So yeah, I still have that though. What a relief after all this pressure. Though sometimes I think I didn't put enough effort. Well yeah, if I'm sitting here infront of the laptop then definitely! (laughs) ok. I have got to go.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Trouble Brewing

What trouble really? Is it my sister? My mum? Dad? Friends? School? Who's making the trouble? How bad is it disturbing me? Well I'll freaking tell ya, I am mad and absolutely mad. I'm frustrated! So frustrated I cry. So you wanna know who is making me feel so sore and antagonized? Here it is.
Me.
Yes. Me. I can blame it on everyone around me. Get angry with everyone around me. But what use is that? Would I benefit from that? No. I wont. I would just feel abominable and it won't make me feel better. Only if I let the malevolent side take over then of course I would feel better but I won't learn from anything. I'm tired. Tired of having to push my fat lazy ass of my cushion and do my work, not literally but figuratively, though sometimes I do do that. But that, that I can over come. It's just the BIGGER things you know? For example, my exams are still on. I HAVE got to study for my Chemistry but it's hard to get myself to do my work! It's like I don't have motivation! As if I don't want to study and get into college or university! I want to though. I want it SO SO bad but I just need support. I need support from my family and friends. They know I want this, to get my higher levels but I cant do it alone. I need support and the thing is with me I don't speak my mind. I'd rather keep my thoughts than admit it to people. Such ego I have don't I? Haha.. The thing is, when you need to succeed in something you can't do it alone. You have your team members to help you out. Such as in a coffee shop, it's not just the coffee shop alone. The coffee shop needs coffee from the farmers, people to import the coffee, people to brew the coffee and so on.
You see, my mind is so much more distracted than I could ever put in words. I'm so worried that I may not do well in my exams. So much thinking is making me go insane. Though there is nothing I can do now but just pray to God. Thank him for what he has given me and sorry that I let him down. Good night.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

25th November 2011

Today was officially my last day in school. We, the SRC members, held a heck of a party and it was spectacular. We had barbecue and lots of other food. We had music and dancing. We had laughter and screams. I surely made the best of my last year in school, it'd be unforgettable. Though my friends and I have had bad times, we got through everything and made the good times count. What have I learnt from my school? There are a million things I've learnt. They're uncountable. And even if they were countable, I can't explain how much I really love those moments.

We got in trouble together, we did things together, though sometimes it wasnt easy but we learned to cope. We learned that time is valuable and that it is hard to rewind, not that you can do that. But can you blame us if we made a huge mistake and so wish to rewind? No, making mistakes doesn't mean you're not perfect. It just means you're better than people who don't have mistakes at all. No one's perfect.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Crazy moment.

Gosh.. It's just my second week of exam yet I feel like it's been WEEKS already. What exam? My major exam. Yes, my last year in school and I'm feeling melancholy about leaving the school soon. It's despairing but at the same time I am exetremely excited. I shouldn't be thinking of this, I should be focusing on my exam. Well, I'm not really confident about my history along with two other subjects though on the other hand I'm definitely confident 'bout my maths! Hahaha. My add. maths are up next, on Wednesday, and I'm supposed to be doing work but here I am, typing. I do wish I was doing work 'cause when the time comes I'd be regretting, again. But I just can't take my mind off of the past weekend.

"Last Friday Night", my school had a year end concert and it was a blast, better than last year, and this time I couldn't take part as I didn't want it to disrupt my focus. I missed taking part in the performances and watching my juniors perform was heartfelt. It was one of the best and most memorable school concerts I've attended so far. The next night was my friends birthday party and it was held at his father's cafe, though to me it was more like a pub. I've known him for 8 years and seeing him so happy was like the best present that I could get from him. He's like my brother though it's confusing. Then there were some bad moments after that which I'm hoping to forget. Then after I gave my gift to my 8th-year-friend (Dragon Boy) and he said with a questionable look "You're only giving the present now" and I smiled. WEll yeah! Everyone else gave their present early and if I did the same.... well I didn't want it to be at the same time. I don't know, I got him something simple.. a mug, for his coffee I thought or something, which said "Boo!" and on the other said it said "Hey! Don't run!" haha, it made me think of him when I saw it. Haha. Well back to my studying!