The Horror of school is coming! Forget school, it's the studying!

I didn't do any revision what-so-ever during the holidays! I'm so dead! I can bet a million stars I won't be able to cope with the new topics coming up.

Especially my econ topics, plus I didn't write the summary and points of my poerty homework. Haha. I had all this time but honestly! Who wants to do homework during holidays while you've got to help out the family as well as trying to earn pocket money.

:(( I want to hang with friends but at the same time I don't want to because I've got no heart for it.

Even if I do go out I don't feel fulfilled so I stick to the family and help because when I get a little bit done here and there I feel a little satisfied in the inside.

So thank you Dear God for Christmas because I sure had pure joy then, pure laughter 'til my jaws ache.

*Love*

Last Weekend we went up to KL. 4days and 3nights.

It was relaxing after such a stressful week. But Blistering Barnicles!

Just to get from one point to another by car takes hours!!
The jam there is horrible! Just being in the car exhausts me, and my mum and dad and sisters and everybody else too.

So if ever there comes a point where I have to choose where to live, I don't want to live in KL. Unless the positive weighs out this one huge negative then I'd probably think twice. Haha.

But still, I liked relaxing at the hotel especially the pool. Watched television with Alana and some times everyone else joins in. Oh, and the wedding that we attended, too, was nice. That was the whole reason of going up.. because one of my mum's loyal employee's first son was getting married. The food was great by the way.

Haha.

Bye!

Merry Christmas Everyone! hahaha

It's been busy the past few days. Preparing for Christmas, baking, wrapping, thinking what to buy, what to wear and busy EATING!

Hahaha! I've been eating a lot but the food is SOO GOOOOD!!

Especially the turkey! I looove turkey and the roast potatoes! And the stuffing! And the garlic bread! And the desserts!

Well of course it's exciting since all this is done only once a year. Good thing we don't eat turkey at just any time of the year. :))

My cousins came down, F1 F2 F3, with Uncle Nanna and Aunty Marina of course. Then there are my first cousins with Uncle and Aunty who live here. So we had a celebration with them on the night of Christmas Eve. And all I can just say is that it was AAWESOME! I had a lot of fun with them and we laughed like crazy!

We played charades and my cousin who was in crutches and a wrapped up leg was the enthusiast. She was so funny and we all had fun. We cracked crackers, a chain. We took photos and group photos. Haha. Then watched a series--can't remember what it's called.

Clock struck 12 and we yelled Merry Christmas. Soon after that we went home because it was late and everyone was tired... Tired but happy. Hahaha.

And I didn't forget to mention :)) we exchanged presents, tucked them under the tree and waited in sleep for morning to come.

We got a lot of wonderful presents...I just feel bad we didn't get anything else for my mum because her gift the most expensive gift of all. Haha, but I really do hope that that was enough for her :)

So that's it. The day before that was Christmas lunch at Tok Tek's and the night after was Christmas dinner at Mr Edward's. Food was enjoyable every where! Thank you Dear God! Haha!

So nighty-night! Sleep well readers!

O,o Holly Guacamole!

I've just seen all my errors on my blog!

Lol!

And it's really stupid--makes me sound stupid anyway.

I've been using my phone so it's hard to see what I'm really doing. Especially when my mind is speeding and my fingers can't catch up. Hahaha.

So I have corrected them.

And if you see any more errors, please do so to tell me!

Thank you!!

:)) :D

What's wrong with me! First I'm angry, then I'm rude, now my mind is in space and I keep blanking out!

I know. I know and I can feel it. I'm a lot sensitive these days and it's not because of my cycle I'm sure -.-" haha. It's more of what trouble brews in my brains.

Insecurities, doubts and confusion.

I don't know how to save myself and I feel angry with every single person, frustrated. I don't want to be around anyone but when take a I look at my family --- I want to be close to them more than ever.

So now, I have given myself a challenge; I will apologise to anything done wrong even if it's just a little. I will apologise even when it's not my fault but I was involved anyway because I'm the elder one and I should give good examples.

It's really hard to hold back my temper with my mum getting upset about every single thing that is done or not done. I just snap and grumble when she does that. I haven't been like this for a long while.

And I don't like being like this.

It hurts people around me and most of all it's hurting me. Being like this isn't making things better for me but worse instead. I thought I'm taking in all the lecturing, criticism and chiding because it'll improve me and make me a better person. And it did, of course, but recently--all I'm doing is just ignore it. Just because of all this emotional stress, which isn't helping. I've been stupid and ignorant and see where that has lead me(?) --just more trouble.

So I'll start again, I'll be humble again. No matter how much it pisses me off. I shall breathe. Breathe and apologise. That's good, Ly. :) See? It's working already. Lol! Nitez!

I just watched "From Kokuriko Hill" and I wonder when my time of falling in love will happen

"From Kokuriko Hill" a.k.a "From Up on Poppy Hill"

A story about a 17 year old girl, Umi, who lives on a hilltop house beside the sea with her grandmother and other boarders. Everyday she raises a signal flag for passing ships in memory of her father.

Noticing the flag every morning is her schoolmate, Shun, who sees it from his father's tugboat.

The two eventually meet in school at a protest rally to protect the old Latin Quarter building which houses all the school clubs. Umi ends up joining the cause, getting other female students to help Shun and the club members clean up the building.

In the process, Umi and Shun develop feelings for each other. However, Umi discovers a shocking secret from the past that threatens to drive them apart.

  

It's an inspiring love story! A Japanese animation that will move you. From the same producers of "The Grave of Fireflies", "Howl's moving Castle", and the others if you know them.

I haven't watched animation for a long time now and I'm sure glad to have watched this first.