THE FUTURE IS BEAUTIFUL. LIFE IS BRIGHT. YOU ARE THE SPARK AND YOU HOLD THE LIGHT.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Friday, March 29, 2013

He says I'm beautiful and why do I not think so?


............ I don't know what to say any more. I say "thank you I guess" because I don't feel beautiful just yet. I say "yet" because I'm sure one day I will feel the confidence I wish for. No hiding.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

One day I'd fly amongst the clouds


Spread my wings
Lift off to the sky
In the bright cool morning
Feel the wind through me
Glide forever up there.


.........

If you were an animal.. What would you be?

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

This is what you get. Friends are amazing!

I went out with them on the 23rd of March. A day before my birthday to celebrate my 19th birthday.

                                       To make Memorable moments on my Last Teen Celebration.

We had fun. And I really enjoyed myself. First time going to the CC. First time going for bowling wiiiiith

                                                          MY VERY BEST FRIEND!

:)) What else? Eeeemmm... Oh!! First time staying out so late! Haha. Yes, we went to pick Sina up from work, had late dinner at McD. Bumped into Haris, who joined us again. Then hit to the cinemas to catch Warm Bodies. And it was good. It was funny. Not like the other funny zombie movie but it's good if you like love stories. There were some action scenes and they were ok..

Got back home around 1, almost 2. Felt tired but I was really happy :D

Today!!! Haha. I met up with an old friend. Old classmate. Never went out with an old friend to catch up before so I really didn't know what to do. Neither did he I guess. Hahahaha.

And we went for luuunch, taaaalked, um, watched a mooviiiiee, The Croods, which by the way, is really really good for a family watch and very funny! Went to Kinokuniya and looked at books and talked. And some where in between, we were laughing, every where. Haha. I'm glad. Did a lot of catching up and well, now we know more about each other than we did before. Haha.

Well, have to make up for the years right? Naaah, it's just fun getting to know your friends all over again. :) :D Especially if they're very nice people. :DD


Friday, March 22, 2013

Fun they say. I don't know how to have fun. I'm boring stiff!


    I'm tired. And I'm thinking negatively. I'm upset but I tell people I'm fine. Everyone's felt like that I'm sure.

    I don't want to go out tomorrow now.. But I can't do that to those who said they'll come. It's not a very nice thing to do to cancel last minute. I had thought it's not a good idea but I did it anyway to prove myself that I'm going to do some thing different for once. I wanted to and I was hoping with all my heart it would be different.

    However, Life just gives you the least and you have to learn to appreciate it. I mean, I do appreciate that some are coming and I understand why some can't come. I'm all right with it because I know, I've been one of those people.

   Maybe this is a taste of my medicine. What goes around, comes around, right?

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So I'll be meeting a few of my friends in City Square at one.

Don't know what we'll do, we'll just see tomorrow.

Around a "not-so-sunny-time" we'll go to the zoo.

We'll eat Indian food. A restaurant I want to introduce to Dragon.

Cross my fingers, and hope I will have fun.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

My Art Work of A Shell

My art work of a shell :))) lol. So proud even though it's not looking real-life.

Aiming to get to that standard soon! :D

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Hotel Transylvania MUSIC VIDEO - Monster Remix (2012) Adam Sandler Anima...

If you haven't watched Hotel Transylvania, that's just sad. Because it has some sick songs. Plus it's funny. Though quite predictable but it's a movie! Sit back, relax and enjoy :))

Friday, March 15, 2013

WTF is wrong with EVERYbody!!?


Why can't people get the right information?? Why do people misunderstand so easily!?? I'm trying to find information and different people say different things!

I hate this! This stresses me up and puts my mood down. I was alright to a certain extent yesterday but I was 60% pissed off. I wanted to know, and still do, how I am able to sit for my exams. Whether I can sit for the first two this year and the next two next year.

So one respectable teacher says this and another person whom I'm under says that. I mean who should I believe!??

Then this morning, there's this religious event that I have to attend and I was going to wear my traditional clothing. But some people said it was today yet other people say it's next Friday.

It may seem that I'm just being, I don't know, what ever you call it, but I can't wear casual clothes for a religious event, it's rude! That is, if it were today and I wore casual clothes.

However, if it were next week and I wore my traditional clothes today but should actually be wearing it next week, I'm taking so many clothes out and there'd be a lot of washing to do.

So I followed what my mum's said. Just because of this, I had to get clothes to wear this morning since I didn't get my casual clothes ready, I was late for school.

Maybe I'm being sensitive. Or I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. Maybe the worry of my exams and how I'd do is pressuring me. I need to get distinctions.

I'm trying to make better. It's hard.
I strongly feel I'm not capable of getting great results.
I can already imagine the standards of the better kids
and I'm just empty.
I'm scared.

Maybe I should say "WTF is wrong with ME"!

Thursday, March 14, 2013

10 more days 'til my birthday..:(


   It's weird right? I should be excited or happy the least. But I'm not. It's not that I'm scared of getting older, or I am, only God knows.

   I'm not even planning anything. No party, no hanging out with friends.. My mum wants to take me to a concert.. but I just don't feel like it.

   I know I'm probably self-conscious about who remembers and who used to always remember and whether or not he'll still do the same thing even though he's gone away and is trying to get over me.

   I've not really appretiated it before but since he did remember and cared for me and my birthday, I started doing the same for him. But by the time I tried to make that more regularly, it's too late. He's gone. Probably forever.

   You guys out there, boys and girls, if you take a look at the people surrounding you--- look for the one who never forgets your birthday by giving you a card or birthday present. Not just wishing you happy birthday. Even if you dont quite like the present. :) Just smile and say thank you very much! And for remembering too!

Because those are the people who are true and worthy. The people who you should keep close to.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I injured my hand today. It's not bad at all.


      Just bruised. I played volleyball, had to practice serving. It's tough because with just two to three servings you're hand is already red. So we had one whole hour of practicing just that. By the time practice ended, it swelled up.

I've been putting an ice-pack on it to cool down the swelling. But bruises have come up around the wrist area. Honestly, it's fun getting active again.

     Then to relax for the evening, my mum, baby sister and I watched One Three Hill. I really love Nathan's and Haley's relationship, they're great together and Haley brings out the best of Nathan. Then there's Lucas. Haley's best friend and used-to-be-Nathan's-arch-nemesis. Who are brothers by different mothers, by the way.

     In this episode we just finished, Luke got admitted into the hospital to have surgery. He and his uncle, Keith, were on the way to fetch Karen, Luke's mum, from the airport. At a traffic light when they were making a turn, a car crashed into the passenger's/ Luke's side of the car and he was unconscious.

     A few days in a coma he finally woke up when Nathan came to see him to tell him that his best friend misses him and that she's beating herself up over the last conversation they had-- a fight about Lucas and his attitude.

You've got to watch it to fully understand it.

In the end, Haley finally visits Lucas in hospital. When she enters the room, Lucas smiles at her. She sits beside him. Without words, they look at each other. Haley tries to hold in her tears but tears escape anyway and Lucas hugs her.

     So even after all they've been through as best friends, they still forgave each other and loved each other. It shows what best friends can truly be like. Which reminds me of my old best friend.

    Even though we don't talk a lot any more, and he's gone over seas to study, and after all that we've been through, the hurt and pain we've caused each other... I still remember the joy we had. All the memories we created for each other. I miss him. I miss him a lot.

But I've let him go and he's letting me go. It's the best for us, -----or is it? I keep wondering is it worth it that how we feel about each other is ruining our friendship? Should we let that get in the way? That we don't have mutual feelings and what he wants is different from what I want.

Was it all caused by other things that went on in our lives? I can't tell any thing apart now-a-days! It's all messed up.

But then, this distance and time will help us. And time will tell if we do become best friends again or not.

Time will tell.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Why can't Life be like this?


Simple

            Life is beautiful, unique but yes, hard. It's complicated because our lives are intertwined with people's, even those we don't know, don't see, don't hear.

Ever since we're brought to Mother Earth, we always have challenges, stress, disappointments, troubles, depression. Whether we want them or not. Whether we're seven or fifty-six, it makes no difference, because we're human. And that's what makes us for who we are and what we become.

Then there's the choice of learning to take things positively or looking at the negatives, or conjuring negatives when it doesn't even exist.

However, we can't judge people because that's who they are. If we're all good people the world wouldn't be right and if we're all to be bad, the world would cease to exist. Can we help ourselves of being this way or that way?

It may seem so, but I don't believe it would be 100% ourselves. Because if it weren't for your parents, you won't be here. If it weren't for your friends or enemies, you won't be who you are. If it weren't for your good experiences and bad, you won't be what you are. But most of all, if I weren't afraid, I won't be me.

Life is hard. We make choices. Learn from our mistakes. And write your own story.