I never want to see that again. Never

My parents had a fight just now. Yes, it's late at night; it could be that everyone is tired.

But I doubt it.

Alana is sick, she's vomited a couple of times tonight. My mum said better take her to the clinic. Well, that's what the fight was about.
Alana sick, needs to go to the clinic, shouting starts, sounds of one pushing or pulling the other, Alana crying.

They sounded like they were on the stairs and I was afraid of what might happen -- so I went to look.

They were at the second flight of stairs, I was on the first. They were yelling at each other, Alana at the bottom of the stairs crying. I arrived seeing my fathers arm in the air and my mum grabbing at him. Still yelling, piercing my ears I just stared. Then blurry happened and I found myself screaming and I burst into tears.

It was high pitched, higher than I've ever heard myself go. Yet they didn't stop. Alana went running up the stairs to come between them, screaming, bawling her eyes out, tears flowing down her cheeks. My mum grabbed to hug her and yelled some more at my dad.

"Now see what you have done!! SEE!"

I cried. I couldn't stop myself but I could't open my mouth either. I don't want to see what I saw. Even though I didn't see anything at all.

Some how things ended up with my parents taking Alana to the clinic; but I think there's going to be a lot more agruements again.

My head is in Cloud 9 I dont even hear what my mum says

I've got it bad.. real bad. And I can't stop. I'm trying like mad but it just hits me everytime I ignore it.

NoNoNo! It's like so inappropriate! Yes I know I have relatives in the same situation but they don't mind. But I'm not used to it!

I always go for guys atleast 2years older! Not 2years YOUNGER!!! Oh Mother of Nature, I feel I want to be slaughtered.

I ignore his critics and insults and

The World just went Brighter with her today. :D

Yes, it literally went brighter.

Hahaha! Of course not! Such retardness you're getting from me today.

Why is it brighter?

Because..

MY BESTFRIEND visited me at school today! WOOHOO!


We're definitely not like other bestfriends out there. We both understand how difficult our family can be - so going out with each other is very limited.  We give space when one of us is angry because we know we'll come 'round. We talk when we can and reply when we can. And what's great is that we don't go at each other's throats when we reply late. Haha. Or if we do get annoyed, we tease each other just to annoy the other. Haha!

But of course, we're also like other bestfriends. We have a deep understanding of each other. We laugh all the time when we do things. We share our problems and excitements with each other. We be there for each other when we're down. We hug whenever we see each other. Tease whenever there's something to tease about.

We always have time for one another even though we live quite far and see very little of each other now. Even though we get to go out like others.

Because together and whenever we're together or talking with each other, we feel like we've been saved already anyways.

And that's why we love each other.

And some times we say we hate each other but we end up laughing anyway.

She's like my sister. I don't have to say her name because her name is buried in my heart and mind.

Loves you, Forever!!

;P 'JAR!!! LOL