School's tomorrow. And I'm up.

JOKE! I don't have school!! HAHAHA! :P Yeah, that's coz I'm done with school, finished! I don't mean drop out. =) sigh... yeah... So, I'm here, on my blog, not that anyone would care about that fact or care about any of my crap I put up. Nothing exciting. Well, I am officially gonna start my internship next month at Gianni's, but now that my sister said that I should do the architects first for two months and Gianni's the next for a month because Gianni's work can be continuous not like the architects.. made me feel down because I didn't know how to plan my own internships! Hah.. Well, she's right, I don't know how to plan my own life.. I've all hopes and dreams of my future, so certain about it.. yet.. I don't know what to do. Can I help but whine!?? I can't! Cause in my heart I am insecure about my life but I'm acting as though I know how to control it. Everyone always say "It's your life, you control it" but it's not that, life is like water. It's tricky, it can be hot, it can be cold. So you know? I really can't do this alone..

Oh.. heh.. I have definitely realised that I don't really wanna date DannyBoy, haha, just because I think he's cute? That's a total lame excuse. I was getting confused, and because I want to be with someone that I can talk to. But he's hopeless with that! Haha. He doesn't even ask me "how are you". He's just a really good little brother, that's all. <) haha. A cute one at that. Well, that's a cross out. ...A few days ago, or has it been weeks?, well whatever, days or weeks, I've been talking with Yumberry. We kinda met at his school during exam period. He's nice and funny and sweet. But, just not right there yet. Haha. I feel he's sorta missing a touch of something. =) No offence, Yumberry. Haha. But you're wonderful to chat with. It's just that now I can't understand why I can't seem to get you outta my head. You're there like EVERY second! How frustrating is that?? Lols, no, not really, kinda happy about it sometimes, because I smile or laugh, even when we're not texting and of course sometimes I'm sad because what I say to you may not be something to be happy about! It's just that, I really don't want to be in a relationship right now, maybe I have said the opposite before but I'm sure I don't want to this moment. I'm not ready. And scared, yes. Please. Help me, someone. Haha. Doubt that anyone would read this anyways. So I'll just ask myself which is IMPOSSIBLE cause even I am struggling.. so yeah. Night peeps.