"No One Understands You Better Than You Yourself"

It's true. Deep down I know it is, you know it is, we all know it is true.

The Thrive of Beginnings The Day Before Today.

It didn't really have a lot of beginnings but it was progress definitely. I've always wanted to try roller-blades, and I know people at the age of five would have already tried it out whether it is roller or ice, and yesterday I made it happen - with a little help. Heehee. And so this is how it started.

I made plans with the boys, Sina and Dragon, to meet in school for a video interview. So in the afternoon I reached school, got the guys and hit it off with the interview without not knowing what they would talk about and what questions I would come up with. It turned out better than I thought it would, haha. They did splendid, they were a natural. A good whole hour went to that, then we went to the secondary buildings and hung out there. Talked, joked and laughed.

Dragon(name is too long for me and I'm quite lazy at the moment) asked me if I was interested to go out roller-skating after school - since he and the gang where going because it was a friends last day with the school. So I said I'll ask my mum. Story cut short, he ended up asking my mum instead and I knew if someone else, other than me asked, she would say it's up to me and she did. Nodding my head like a bobble as a response to her question - smiling brightly at Dragon. Then she asked a question which brought my smile down "What about Alana? Wouldn't she want to go to", not that I don't like my own little sister but sometimes I like having my own time with my friends. I said I'd ask her anyway, and so I did, knowing her answer should want to tag along I brought her with me.

When we arrived the skating rink, rented skates, we tried it out. It was bleepin' hard! We survived though, thanks for asking. I fell a couple of times, countless actually. Alana enjoyed herself which was good. She said the most fun part is landing on our bottoms - and I laughed. There were a number of us in that gang, 6 girls and 7-9 boys. Most of the guys went for paintball after a while at the rink, shot each other a couple of times, got bruises, stuff like that. Then we headed for KSL, the guys got a ride from Dragon's father while the girls were supposed to get a ride from JS' mum but she hadn't even left the house yet so we ended up taking the bus - which by the way was Alana's and my first time getting on the local bus.

We got off the bus at CS and JS' mum sent us to KSL from there. We were starving so stopped at a Taiwan restaurant, ordered take out, smuggled it in the theaters, and, ate and watched at the same time - oh, and we missed out the beginning of the movie for our stomachs! Which was worth it.

After the movie, JS and Dragon's sister wanted to go karaoke and it was already 9 something! Thankfully Dragon was tired too so he dropped us and Sina home. Which got me thinking of how brotherly he is sometimes. He's little yet he's got this big brother thing about him. That was the first time, well not exactly but, I really thought of how and what he's really like. The thoughts were really comforting.

Taylor Swift - Eyes Open (Lyric Version) -For Simon, TMI

Personally, I really want this song for Simon, The Mortal Instruments' Daylighter. After living a mundane life, having Changed to a vampire - I feel so sad for him. He's happy maybe. But I'd love Simon with all my heart. You can see from the beginning of TMI to the very recent book how much he's changed. But too bad this song is already the Hunger Games.. ~(crying with lots of pain!)~ The way he thought of his mundane life of playing video games when he witnessed and entered the war in Alicante, realising that that was real and was nothing like the games. But Simon (no last name given, Cassandra! I would love to know Simon's last name!! :]) I dedicate this to you. For being strong and just being you!!! I love you! P.S. Hope you enjoy this song! <3

I just read the most amazing scene of Jace's view

Who knew Jace could really be that soft on the inside. Well of course, he's human too - as though that wasn't obvious. But it really does give an insight of what he's thinking since we're always thinking that he's got such a strong expressionless face. It's really good to read this because it makes me realise how much more I love Cassandra Clare's writing! All though I noticed a few things that was different but what does it matter when her stories explode like fireworks.
Here's the link to those of you who haven't read it or don't know about it, but to those of you who know and love it - it's nice to read it again. It gives you sparks throughout the body. Teehee!

http://www.cassandraclare.com/my-writing/excerpts-extras/jaces-pov-manor-scene/
http://www.cassandraclare.com/my-writing/excerpts-extras/because-it-is-bitter/

Oooh! And then there's one of Magnus and Alec! one of the most favourite couples! It's a jaw-dropping scene!

http://www.cassandraclare.com/my-writing/excerpts-extras/kissed/

I am not implying or saying anything that will cause hurt and neither am I saying that I own this website (that's for sure!). I'm only a really big fan of Cassandra Clare and The Mortal Instruments. And this is precisely the only reason why I'm sharing her website. But hope you like what you read! Enjoy!

Oh. And this was a joke I made after I read these links. I think it may sound lame but.. who cares! I love them, characters!

Jace: "It's getting hot in here. So take off all your clothes."
Alec: "I am - gettin' so hot. I'm gonna take my clothes off"
Jace: "No, Alec! Not you!"
Magnus: ~(giving a deathly stare)~
Alec: "Oh. Sorry."
Clary: ...........

Am I hurt? No, I'm not. Am I disturbed? Maybe. A little.

That's why I don't allow myself to fall in love deeply or at all. Crush, like, adore - yes, but never more than that. I can think it and believe it but I know deep in my heart I will never give my whole heart.
 Why?
Because. I know. It's not my time yet. I'm still so young, and I don't want commitments at a young age. It's stressful. I let myself fall into a relationship when I fell like it and I know that it'll not last long. Why? I weigh the odds, see if I am a better person with than without this person, or whether my parents like him. Not that the "him" is significant.

But it's been slightly over a year since that break up. Right after that, I never thought I'd flinch when his name is spoken or ignore his name whenever it pops up on Facebook but I did. I'm not upset about breaking up or being single. I'm not hurt but why is it when I see that he's got a new girlfriend I feel uncomfortable? As though something in my head is yelling "he's forgotten me". I'm fine that he's got someone new but one thing I just can't understand is that when he was with me he convinced me that he really loved me, that I was the only one. Yet so quickly he's found someone else.

Are boys like that? Or it's just him?

Anyway, what's important now is that I concentrate on my future and not ..... relationships. There's no other word is there? Maybe, but I'm too lazy to find out. Meanwhile, I'm waiting for my next book to arrive at my doorstep - can't wait!

Logan Lerman as Simon

Here's Logan with some specs on for TMI (The Mortal Instruments). Well sort of - this is how he'd look like. I know it's not a good pic and stuff like that. This is just to get the picture of what he'd look like.

Not that I am saying that I route or don't route for him as Simon. I just noticed a lot of you guys love him as Simon.

Peace!

Art Of Flower- by invite only - *AWARD 2* Sweeper is Active

Art Of Flower- by invite only - *AWARD 2* Sweeper is Active, a group on Flickr.

A-maaaaa-zing shots of Flowers!!!!! Argh! I keep hitting the favourite button for almost every single picture I look at. Hopefully, one day I'll be as good as that.

Dear God, I want to travel the world.

I wish to see everything of the world, well not everything but most of it anyways. No, no, maybe I should say "everything beautiful" or "everything mother nature has provided", just in case I end up seeing something horrible or terrifying. Haha, definitely I do not want to experience something like that.

I have to work first. After I start and finish University and get a good job, work for a few years, save up money then travel. Though, I'm afraid if I hope too hard, I end up disappointed because I may get stuck with my job for many years and I don't get an opportunity to make it come true.

Cross your fingers though! So that I get to travel. :)

Take photographs, be inspired, let my mind absorb beautiful colours and make my colour chart wider. Oh, all the things I can imagine! Birds, dogs, people of different ages, skies, flowers, seas, sand; Everything! I just want to grasp it with my arms and never let go! Haha, but How Reality! Focus on "the now"! Sigh, I have to work hard first, I mean study hard. My parents can't make this come true for me, I have to do it on my own. And I will! I really do hope I don't give up.

Dear God, I want to travel the world. Please bless that opportunity when the time is right. Please give me the vitality to fulfill this. Oh, I should make a bucket list! This shall be the first then. Teehee!