Lessons Begin Tomorrow. First Class ever.

My first bird, the real one! Hahaha

Not my first lesson but my first class of GIVING a lesson. Haha. Yes. I last minute thing. Wasn't even part of my plan as I've talked about previously, isn't it? Hahaha. Well, what am I teaching? Art. Yes, art. Wonderful, spectacular, breath-taking art. It's a part time job so I don't have to worry about being exhausted. I'm starting with Garde 6 as their original teacher isn't well so I'm the substitute.

Where? At my mother's school, so that's not a complete surprise is it? Hahaha. Likely to be expected since I'm not doing anything at the moment as well. And since I know art at the back of my hand, the tips of my fingers as well as breathe it so I don't have a problem with it. Haha. That's why my mum got me to take over.

This is temporarily until they get another teacher because I have to go off to do other things. Such as my job in February and I was thinking to take up swimming again as my chest is not doing really good, coughing and wheezing, and some times it hurts. So I gotta be careful.. Anyways, I'll talk more next time. Now I gotta sleep 'cause class is at 10:30am tomorrow. So.. haha.. Nights everyone! =))



Super Bass!

Hahaha! Okay, so my friend tagged me this on Facebook, I watched it and it just made me smile. =) hah. So if anyone is feeling down and in the bumps (...I think that's what they usually say) then watch this! :D Hahaha.

3 things that are just me, I can't deny. Though it hurts.

Jealousy.
Feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, success, or advantages.

Vigilant.
Keeping careful watch for possible danger or difficulties.

Perfectionist.
A person who is displeased by anything that does not meet very high standards.
Or simply want to impress people.

Impress people? Why in the world do we need impress people?? Because we want to feel proud of ourselves? I don't know, but, these are points of me which I highly dislike. It irritates the nuts out of me that in the end I just can't get it right. Yes, I screw up. But I'm just HUMAN!

Not everyone is perfect, if fact no one is. Each individual is special in their own way, you don't have to be a duplicate of someone just to make them proud. But why can't I understand that? No, I do understand. I just don't seem to GRASP this piece of knowledge. I wish I didn't have so much of these, I don't know what you call them, but wishing is far different than willing. Learning to control yourself is a lot harder than it looks. Sometimes out of the blue I just snap, shocked by my own vast emotional level just hurts. I can be extreme at times, other times I'm just so calm no emotions flow through me.

Haha, and I don't think it's just because of puberty or hormones - alright scientifically yes, it's got something to do with it but to me it's a whole lot different. I don't like it when I'm very emotional, but when I'm not at all I question myself "why don't I feel anything". It's depressing. Well, you can't get everything in life can you? It's true, you can't.

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I'm an amateur amateur in these things. Haha.

School's tomorrow. And I'm up.

JOKE! I don't have school!! HAHAHA! :P Yeah, that's coz I'm done with school, finished! I don't mean drop out. =) sigh... yeah... So, I'm here, on my blog, not that anyone would care about that fact or care about any of my crap I put up. Nothing exciting. Well, I am officially gonna start my internship next month at Gianni's, but now that my sister said that I should do the architects first for two months and Gianni's the next for a month because Gianni's work can be continuous not like the architects.. made me feel down because I didn't know how to plan my own internships! Hah.. Well, she's right, I don't know how to plan my own life.. I've all hopes and dreams of my future, so certain about it.. yet.. I don't know what to do. Can I help but whine!?? I can't! Cause in my heart I am insecure about my life but I'm acting as though I know how to control it. Everyone always say "It's your life, you control it" but it's not that, life is like water. It's tricky, it can be hot, it can be cold. So you know? I really can't do this alone..

Oh.. heh.. I have definitely realised that I don't really wanna date DannyBoy, haha, just because I think he's cute? That's a total lame excuse. I was getting confused, and because I want to be with someone that I can talk to. But he's hopeless with that! Haha. He doesn't even ask me "how are you". He's just a really good little brother, that's all. <) haha. A cute one at that. Well, that's a cross out. ...A few days ago, or has it been weeks?, well whatever, days or weeks, I've been talking with Yumberry. We kinda met at his school during exam period. He's nice and funny and sweet. But, just not right there yet. Haha. I feel he's sorta missing a touch of something. =) No offence, Yumberry. Haha. But you're wonderful to chat with. It's just that now I can't understand why I can't seem to get you outta my head. You're there like EVERY second! How frustrating is that?? Lols, no, not really, kinda happy about it sometimes, because I smile or laugh, even when we're not texting and of course sometimes I'm sad because what I say to you may not be something to be happy about! It's just that, I really don't want to be in a relationship right now, maybe I have said the opposite before but I'm sure I don't want to this moment. I'm not ready. And scared, yes. Please. Help me, someone. Haha. Doubt that anyone would read this anyways. So I'll just ask myself which is IMPOSSIBLE cause even I am struggling.. so yeah. Night peeps.